HI MY NAME IS EAIN I'M AN ADDICT

Eain S.
Clean and sober since 9-5-15

The list of substances I didn't try would be much quicker to write down than the ones I did. The one that really sunk its claws in was 30mg oxycodones. I was physically and mentally addicted to them for over 10 years. I held a job to fund my addiction and fed my addiction to physically be able to work everyday. It was an unbreakable cycle, or so I thought.

I believed that as long as I was snorting my drugs with $100 bill my life was good and I didn't have a problem. $100 bills became 50s, then 20's,10's,5's,1's, and eventually any piece of garbage I could craft into a funnel would suffice. I was a closet addict which means no one close to me knew of my demons besides my dealer, and also means I never was offered help.

I had tried to quit on my own at least 50 times unsuccessfully, always using another drug to substitute and mask the uncomfortable feeling of being sober. My rock bottom was waking up to the sound of a broken record player everyday, contemplating if it would be easier to just end my life. In the end I had to admit to myself and everyone around me that not only was I an addict in every sense of the word. But that I had also lied to them and they did not know the real me.

Admitting my problem out loud was absolutely my first step in getting better. I began attending 12 step meetings, visited an addiction counselor weekly for over a year and surrounded myself with recovery and others in it. When I was around 6 months clean I attended a 12 step convention and bought a hat from a vendor booth. The positive reactions from others when wearing that recovery hat was incredible and boosted my confidence like nothing ever had. I was able to talk about my struggle with addiction to complete strangers. It was at this moment that I realized I wanted to help others experience the same feeling.

I had a shitty laptop and a dream so I began brainstorming ideas for recovery t shirts. Sobermode.com is the result of my recovery and my will to live. Life today sometimes isn't the easiest but it's a lot better than the mental hell I lived in for a huge portion of my life. I am no longer ashamed of my past and the obsession to drink or get high has been lifted. If you are struggling please reach out and ask for help, there will be someone there for you. Do not be scared, life does go on and you will not regret the most important decision of your life.

Edit* 7-19-18. As my page keeps growing from all of your love so does the misconception that sobermode is a "big brand" or company. I drive a 1999 honda accord and live in a 2 bedroom manufactured home. I am one man in my garage, I print all the orders myself, make all the designs, package, ship , handle customer concerns, and oversee all the social media aspects. I do not make a lot of money from my shirts, i pray that one day I do and i can give back in a BIG way. But right now i barely make enough to keep a roof over my families head with this. I left a union job because i could not keep up with a 9-5 and sobermode as it grew. I am BEYOND grateful for that . I have received the most beautiful gift of being able to raise my son and be here for him. I am writing this to paint a picture because i get a lot of hate from people saying i should give shirts away, or give to the recovery community. I simply cannot right now. I WANT TO SO BAD but its not possible for me to make enough to support my family and give stuff away. Love you all! Thank you from the depths of my heart for all the support and inspiration you have given me in my recovery!

You might ask "what separates sobermode from other recovery shirt sites?"

I am a addict in recovery, I make, oversee, and ship every order. Most other shirt sites send their orders directly to an outsourced company which prints them and ships them to you without ever seeing them. I do not. Your satisfaction is my number 1 concern when selling you a shirt and I offer a 100% satisfaction guarantee on all of my garments and designs. Sobermode is for a cause, stopping the stigma, and raising awareness.

The more of an open/comfortable subject we make addiction, the more we will be able to reach out and touch the still suffering addict. My hope is to get these shirts out in public, stir things up, start conversations, and bring more attention to the drug epidemic happening today in every town across the world. Be a part of my story, order a sober shirt, or 2, or 3 and lets get everyone back into SOBERMODE! The way we were born and meant to live our lives!